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noor's avatar

I'm in love with this post and these words. It calmed me in a way. Thank you for sharing that 𖹭

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Anna M.'s avatar

this made my night <333 Thank you for your kind words, truly means a lot to me....

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noor's avatar

So glad to know... Sending much love 𖹭

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Anna M.'s avatar

I imagine that if one chooses to transform from the canvas into the paint, they risk burning themselves—metaphorically speaking. If you decide you no longer wish to be the medium through which expression is expressed, you need to reduce your own significance in the world, shifting from a sturdy, reliable canvas to a pile of ash. But even in that state, the ash can become a foundation—a base where the colors you wish to associate yourself with can be mixed into you.

Perhaps what the man was trying to get me to understand was that only through the deliberate removal of myself could I come to an understanding of the individual I choose to be, rather than the individual who is simply practical. I guess to answer your question, you would need to destroy yourself to some degree. Not as in utter destruction, moreover, being open to the idea of stripping yourself bare without the fear of judgment.

Even then, being the canvas isn’t a bad thing. It’s practical, reliable, strong—it’s what the paint depends on, to some degree. The real dilemma is determining whether one is better off as the tool or as the meaning.

Also, thank you for your kind words!! means a lot!

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